PrincessLissa
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I know it's a long whiney story, but I just need some advice to make me feel better I think. Thanks. 
So I have this really great friend that I think I mentioned in another post. I met him at the goth club a few months ago and we have talked everyday since then and have become very good friends. He has helped me through a lot of crap and I acctualy trust him which is not something I give out very eaisly. Well, we went to the goth club a week ago and saw each other for the first time since we had met. I was pretty dunk but we danced most of the night in a very provacitive way. At the end of the night I ended up mooning and flashing the DJ booth as I know those crazy guys and I was beyond plastered. Well, my friend was up there when I did it. I felt bad cause friends aren't sposed to see that. Whoops. I didn't see anything too wrong with the dancing tho cause that is the theme of the night, Skin2Skin. But he made a big deal out of it all week and talked about it a lot. He told me that we could be great together in the future. He told me that the things I was working towards and the way I was furthering myself as a person (law school, good carrer while in school, my own place etc...) were what he wanted in a girl and that I was a trusted friend of his and that I was sweet, sexy and smart. So dumbass me got my hopes up about him. I talked to him today before I left for the club and he said he might go. He had to see what his cute hippish neighbor was doing. Jealousy caught me by surprise. I expected not to see him last night but told him he should go anyway. I was surprised when he showed up. A few of our mutual friends gave him shit cause according to the grapevine they are jealous that I always hang on him and he gets hugs and kisses and stuff. I don't have a connection with them and none of them have my trust or do I have interest in. Anyway, with my broken foot we couldn't dance much but we talked and did the friendly hugging, cuddling thing. He saved me from this dork and his wife that want to make me into a Lissa sandwhich by pretending to be my boyfriend. He was just too dam good at it. The way he held me and rested his chin on my head (He's 6'7 *drool*) was just so sweet and it made me feel happy and safe but at the same time lonely and sad. I was resting on his chest and staring out into space when he looked down at me and asked "Are you alright? Or are you just comfertable?" I told him I was comfertable but didn't answer the first question. That is the first time I have ever held anything back from him. I think I will tell him about it when I talk to him next, not the part about how I want more from him tho. I came home and cried a lot of the black goth makeup off my face. I just dunno what to do. We grow closer all the time, but when we see each other, I feel even closer to him. I want to keep his friendship as it is very important to me, but what do I do about my feelings?
Any advice for a whiney, picky, suburbain princess?
So I have this really great friend that I think I mentioned in another post. I met him at the goth club a few months ago and we have talked everyday since then and have become very good friends. He has helped me through a lot of crap and I acctualy trust him which is not something I give out very eaisly. Well, we went to the goth club a week ago and saw each other for the first time since we had met. I was pretty dunk but we danced most of the night in a very provacitive way. At the end of the night I ended up mooning and flashing the DJ booth as I know those crazy guys and I was beyond plastered. Well, my friend was up there when I did it. I felt bad cause friends aren't sposed to see that. Whoops. I didn't see anything too wrong with the dancing tho cause that is the theme of the night, Skin2Skin. But he made a big deal out of it all week and talked about it a lot. He told me that we could be great together in the future. He told me that the things I was working towards and the way I was furthering myself as a person (law school, good carrer while in school, my own place etc...) were what he wanted in a girl and that I was a trusted friend of his and that I was sweet, sexy and smart. So dumbass me got my hopes up about him. I talked to him today before I left for the club and he said he might go. He had to see what his cute hippish neighbor was doing. Jealousy caught me by surprise. I expected not to see him last night but told him he should go anyway. I was surprised when he showed up. A few of our mutual friends gave him shit cause according to the grapevine they are jealous that I always hang on him and he gets hugs and kisses and stuff. I don't have a connection with them and none of them have my trust or do I have interest in. Anyway, with my broken foot we couldn't dance much but we talked and did the friendly hugging, cuddling thing. He saved me from this dork and his wife that want to make me into a Lissa sandwhich by pretending to be my boyfriend. He was just too dam good at it. The way he held me and rested his chin on my head (He's 6'7 *drool*) was just so sweet and it made me feel happy and safe but at the same time lonely and sad. I was resting on his chest and staring out into space when he looked down at me and asked "Are you alright? Or are you just comfertable?" I told him I was comfertable but didn't answer the first question. That is the first time I have ever held anything back from him. I think I will tell him about it when I talk to him next, not the part about how I want more from him tho. I came home and cried a lot of the black goth makeup off my face. I just dunno what to do. We grow closer all the time, but when we see each other, I feel even closer to him. I want to keep his friendship as it is very important to me, but what do I do about my feelings?
Any advice for a whiney, picky, suburbain princess?
