BlurOfSerenity
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i've been really crazy lately.
me and josh broke up.
and i wanted to get back together with him but he had to go and be all sensible, and state what we both already knew.
i've been an emotional wreck lately.
work's killing me.
i've been manic (i'm bipolar), and it causes me to do things like spend a lot of money on things i don't need, and do things like cut my hair too short on my own over the bathroom sink, and dye the front purple which i'm doing right now.
sometimes i wonder if i need to go away again.
i'm too wellbehaved for hospitals tho. if i were admitted, i'd only be out the day after the next anyway,,, and the only reason it'd take that long would be paperwork, i'm sure.
besides,.. i'm done with that.
but i've had these horrible urges to do things that are bad to myself, and i really don't want to but sometimes it's all i can fucking think about and i just wonder how much more it will take until it breaks me.
i'm not really to be worried about... i have no intention of ending my life. i'm not suicidal.
but everything around me is sucking, and i just needed to ... vent.
me and josh broke up.
and i wanted to get back together with him but he had to go and be all sensible, and state what we both already knew.
i've been an emotional wreck lately.
work's killing me.
i've been manic (i'm bipolar), and it causes me to do things like spend a lot of money on things i don't need, and do things like cut my hair too short on my own over the bathroom sink, and dye the front purple which i'm doing right now.
sometimes i wonder if i need to go away again.
i'm too wellbehaved for hospitals tho. if i were admitted, i'd only be out the day after the next anyway,,, and the only reason it'd take that long would be paperwork, i'm sure.
besides,.. i'm done with that.
but i've had these horrible urges to do things that are bad to myself, and i really don't want to but sometimes it's all i can fucking think about and i just wonder how much more it will take until it breaks me.
i'm not really to be worried about... i have no intention of ending my life. i'm not suicidal.
but everything around me is sucking, and i just needed to ... vent.