markjs
Banned
I want to take a minute to tell you all I love ya in some way or another. I argue with many of you and many of your opinions politically make me sad, mad, or even fearful, but all the same I spend time with you because I enjoy it and I wish you all well this holiday season. That includes you Cerise, 'peel, Gato, SnP, RM, and anyone else I get the angriest with and argue with the most. If it's ever been "personal" it was only in the heat of the moment. What I have seen is when I share parts of my life that are painful that you all have been there for me, and I truly appreciate it, I hope you all realize it's all same by me, and well......Backatcha!
I am VERY ill, (puking, abdominal pain, diarrhea as bad as I have ever had it). It looks like I will miss a second Christmas in a row (sort of), but it's OK because I have my sobriety and my freedom this year. Things I couldn't have if not for getting clean and sober by the grace of god and with the help of the AA and NA programs. Last year I was in jail and had meth toxicity big time. God was with me but boy I felt alone at the time. By comparison this Christmas is wonderful! If anything my sobriety has made me be able to count my blessings and want what I have rather than be so focused on having what I want. I am grateful for the opportunity to have Christmas taking care of myself and hanging with my best friend.
That would be my 15 year old border collie/black lab dog, who seems as if she might be taking a turn for the worse, so it would be OK to just spend the day with her, the purest loving friend I have ever known. She is the kind of dog that when she was young whenever I left the house she was behind me and in the car, because if she couldn't be with me at all times she wanted to at least be in the car with me. She hates when Jody and I leave her home alone as we planned to today, and I get the opportunity to be here for her on Christmas so she doesn't have to be alone. I am very grateful for that. That dog and I were bonded as if we grew up together and because of my "arrested development" (addiction) a case could be made that we did just that. Whoever says a dog doesn't have a soul, doesn't have the fundamental ideal of god within it is a FOOL! Perhaps that's why she is a "d-o-g" because she really has more "g-o-d" in her than some people do, because calamity, pomp and worship of other things, that obscure it in people, hardly apply to her.
So please take the time to slow down, count your blessings and give your loved ones a big hug for me. I do care about each and every one of you in some way or another. Your very sick friend -Mark
I am VERY ill, (puking, abdominal pain, diarrhea as bad as I have ever had it). It looks like I will miss a second Christmas in a row (sort of), but it's OK because I have my sobriety and my freedom this year. Things I couldn't have if not for getting clean and sober by the grace of god and with the help of the AA and NA programs. Last year I was in jail and had meth toxicity big time. God was with me but boy I felt alone at the time. By comparison this Christmas is wonderful! If anything my sobriety has made me be able to count my blessings and want what I have rather than be so focused on having what I want. I am grateful for the opportunity to have Christmas taking care of myself and hanging with my best friend.
That would be my 15 year old border collie/black lab dog, who seems as if she might be taking a turn for the worse, so it would be OK to just spend the day with her, the purest loving friend I have ever known. She is the kind of dog that when she was young whenever I left the house she was behind me and in the car, because if she couldn't be with me at all times she wanted to at least be in the car with me. She hates when Jody and I leave her home alone as we planned to today, and I get the opportunity to be here for her on Christmas so she doesn't have to be alone. I am very grateful for that. That dog and I were bonded as if we grew up together and because of my "arrested development" (addiction) a case could be made that we did just that. Whoever says a dog doesn't have a soul, doesn't have the fundamental ideal of god within it is a FOOL! Perhaps that's why she is a "d-o-g" because she really has more "g-o-d" in her than some people do, because calamity, pomp and worship of other things, that obscure it in people, hardly apply to her.
So please take the time to slow down, count your blessings and give your loved ones a big hug for me. I do care about each and every one of you in some way or another. Your very sick friend -Mark
