I just found out from my mom that a lump on my dog's abdomen that we figured as a fatty lump (that was the vet's guess when she had her physical in June) and thus required no action has gotten so painful that she cries if you touch it and has problems finding a comfortable way to lie down. The vet was closed tonight before they realized she was in pain (when my brother tried to pick her up) so my mom is calling in the morning and depending when they can fit us in I'll take her in after work tomorrow or my mom and brother will take her on Friday...I'm scared that there may be nothing that can be done...the pain came on so suddenly, this morning it was fine. I'm really scared...mostly I'm scared that she won't understand if we have to put her down...I've never had someone close to me die suddenly...everyone close to me who has died was sick and had come to a state of acceptance about the possibility of their death...but she's a dog...what if she doesn't understand, what if she dies feeling unloved or neglected because I disappeared on her (and my dad disappeared on her 6 years ago when he died but she doesn't know what happened...she just knows he disappeared...