To be quite candid actually though, this "community responsibility", that I am developing is rather new to me in some aspects of my life. I was raised to respect my city, by my mother for example, by things like her teaching me never to litter. As a result, my coat pockets are oft filled with empty wrappers, or napkins or tissues, because she taught me well in that regard about respecting my community, even when I was shooting dope I would not litter. The deeper level of thinking through the far reaching consequences of my actions, however, is something that I have developed over time being in and out of AA and NA, but since for the first time I am really working the twelve step program, in its enirety, to the best of my ability, I must report near miraculous results.
What I find is the people who really try to live this thing, do grow, they do get better, and they do stay clean and sober, and my experience tells me that it's not most, but 100% of them. Those who fail in AA and NA, simply seem to be unwilling and/or unable to just shut up, listen to those who have done it and know how, and follow instructions, and give it their best shot, but perhaps most importantly, to continue to give it their best shot
for the rest of their lives. It is after all, a program of
"attraction rather than promotion", and pushing it on people only makes them more unwilling/unable to embrace it. As I oft hear said in meetings, it is not at all a thing for those who need it, but only for those who
want it. Lucky for me I became such a hopeless and desparate case I was as "willing as the dying can be", as they say in the book.
In AA they have a thing called the promises:
The Big Book Of Alcoholics Anonymous said:
If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.
I am happy to report that every one of those things has happend for me, as a direct result of the twelve step program. Life is in no way perfect, nor am I, and am none of those promises is an all the time absolute, but to the degree I am willing to live the way that the program teaches me to, then I have that kind of peace, and new attitude, and I am really happier than I have ever been.
It may be that it only works for a small percentage of addicts and alcoholics, but I can tell you, that I am absolutely positive, that the reason it won't is because they can't or won't give a sincere effort to live by those principals. But the point is, that as a result of this thing, I am a LOT more personally responsible, and I have a newfound sense of community responsibilty, or perhaps more clearly stated, responsibility to my community and society.