I've got things I want to do with my life Nixy and I can't do them without money. While disability just about covers living expenses it only allows me to do the things I do because I go without things that other people seem to think are essential so that I can get what I want. I don't want to spend the rest of my life living like that, I want to travel and see the world and do things I find interesting and and rewarding, and I can't do that without money, so I NEED to work to make my life worthwhile, or I'm just sitting here waiting to die and to me that isn't a life.
I'm putting the past behind me and looking to the future. As part of that I've an appointment with a solicitor on Tuesday to sort out my divorce - I've been seperated since '97, but I guess because of Katie, I never took the final step. I want to be free to pursue my own interests without impediments and now there is no longer a barrier to that final step. It's also pretty much why I've never become involved with anyone else because even though I was seperated I was still married. It's a loose end that needs tidying away.