greenfreak said:
not me; I wouldn't want to give you the satisfaction of getting the constant attention you so desperately seek.
Pure unadulterated realistic observation, offered in a spirit of gentleness, mercy, an' pity, (me thinks).
*steps aside to GF's patient, wise, parental words*
(thinkin' of the many times I've pushed the carin' folk in my life to the point of a, "pick-a-side" type decision) like, (accept me as 'monster'- 'detestable', or not at all)
Am also an only-child ya know. Astranged many a would-be friend, in a fit of vengefull rage, which derived from the attitude that, "I was wronged / so, all must suffer my own pain".
Missed out on the love of a lot of special, patient folks who offered a lot more for the learnin' than I ever gave 'em credit for.
Not tryin' to say I've walked a mile in LL's shoes, jus' that many a life's offered love is forfeit to our own lust or anger, in effort to feel a greater sense of self worth than we, ourselves can conjure.
Life is so short, 'ere on Earth, people are precious, don't wanna spend any more time denyin' my own 'frailty'. Jus' wanna accept the love of others, which I desperately need to help me along, in my own little journey, while also seein' an' actin' on opportunities to offer a similar kinda love to folk who struggle for the same 'sense' of selfworth as I.